Rop Ferendez (Humanity)

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Wednesday, November 05, 2008

hello! =)

ok, i've been coming home late, about almost 10 to 11 every night now and then. rushing for my assignments. sometimes it just make me sick of going to school one day cuz i really scared of just faint on the spot or so. now, i could hardly catch a breath, my chest hurts somehow. i don't know why. i guess i really need to rest.

these days also, spending the time in school till night. these two days are not so fun without my dear bro around. i do miss him. because he's a bro to me, i just pray to hope he's safe in his trip, and i know god will bless him. =)

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sometimes i wonder is it just me? why did i fall in love with Popish R&B music with autotune and all? why didn't i love rock and other genres as much as other of my friends do? sometimes, i'm really left out in the class, i know. cuz it seems like i'm the only one interested in this. and i really really feel left out. while talking about all the other geniuses' work, mine is just plain POPish 4/4 some major scale, sometimes minor. while the rest are some 5/8 and some scale that are uncommon. i sometimes really feel like just emo at one corner and don't feel about anything, oh, anyway i'm just too conservative at almost all the time, so it'll make no diff.

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--> that's how i feel now. that's why i feel left out. that's why i feel like crying at times and just ignore bout everything. that's how i become so distant between my closeD friend. so don't blame me if we have become slightly distant or so. just take it that we have our differences, alright?

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~~ but when there's someone, someone who is there to be willing to reach out his hand and lift you up, someone who do think that your stuff is still good among the norm, someone who really understands and has about the same interest as you, and someone who is really to help you, will you be willing to grab his hand and push yourself up with his help?
- i won't hesitate to grab his hand and even give myself and extra push. because no one has make me believe in what i do is good. no one has make me feel that my prescence is worth. no one has make me believe in myself in doing what i like and what i really want to do.

again, bro, this is all out for you. i really appreciate what you have done to me.
i really salute you, bro.

thanks for giving me all these hopes.

'cause when there's hope, there's dream. and when there's dream, there's passion. and when there's passion, almost everything will seem possible.

it's really dope to have you as my brotha! =)

Labels: Brotha - Salute, Tiredness, Words to Friends

Diary @ ~~11/05/2008 12:06:00 AM;~~