Rop Ferendez (Humanity)

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Friday, June 13, 2008

my bro went for his ns this morning. i was feeling emotional and sad. knowing that i woke up and he still hasn't left home, i woke up too. on my bed, thinking... imma gonna be living for one year with the bed besides mine, empty most of the time at night. and i can't go back to sleep.

he closed his lappy, then help me descend the blind of the room's window. then walk out silently and close the door. yes, we share the same room. then i was there, lying in my bed, thinking a lot.... a lot.

then i woke up, go to the living room. bro was busy doing things. then i just call his name, and then hugged him. for like.. 10 seconds... wish could have hug longer.

then i went back to my bed and lie there for sometime. started to sob. thinking, and that empty bed for 1 year +.. i tend to sleep better with him beside me....

and now.............. gone..~

miss him a lot.......

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

yesterday night, on my bed, thought through a lot.

i threw my bolster on the floor.
cuz it's the only thing i would hug me to sleep.
looking at my bro.
thinking of the whole world against me...

felt like dying.. zzz.

don't wanna talk more about it. you can picture the whole world with darkness.
bye.

hope i'll die somehow so that i won't feel a thing. like all you people weep for me at once on my funeral day and then forget about me.
Diary @ ~~6/13/2008 07:48:00 AM;~~

REX
ROP FERENDEZ
Humanity
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But you could share your views with me.
Maybe you could change mine, and vice versa.
I hope that I could maintain Humanity within my peers.
And my peers could do that to his/her peers, and so on.
For one word that I wish the world for is....
Peace