Rop Ferendez (Humanity)

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Thursday, March 06, 2008

hey everyone. been thinking a lot in my life. many things.

family. what i've said regarding my parents, i just can't have that "thing" to love them. no idea why. it's like.. when i wanna love them; they just make me lose it. i wanted to, but i can't.

work. it's like i'm really under attachment with my dad. how lucky, yet unlucky. who knows when this father-son relationship could really hold. i don't want it to stretch as much as a rubber band and then snaps.

music. all says music is life, music is life. yeah, what irony. was named after stupidity when supported legal possessions. a few hitsongs download would be alright, but whole album? whole whatever thing you call that? talking about can't live without music.

me. daydream too much. think too much. i was never ready. to be someone great. all i do is really, pure stupidity, nonsensical dreams. conservative freak, yet arrogant when praised. act humble, act big. don't care for others. expects what is expected, and when failed, show some shit sulky face.

dance. people says they like me dancing. yeah right -.- in my temple. while i'm incomparable to any much dancers out there. i like since 12. yet didn't really go for any classes. where's that passion of investment?

compositions. give excuses when others find it otherwise. felt arrogance when praised. can;t handle criticisms.

people. just shouldn't really go to the extreme. wished that could just be on the border.

love. loser for 18years and counting. where's my pretty lady?

life. passions of flame keeps burning. yet lack of oxygen. dies fast yet none reveals great satisfaction. pain and unloved is always felt. how i wish life could always be otherwise.

yes; how i wish i could just change my attitude, my goals, my passions, my dreams to a more exact one.

hopes that what goes around; really comes back around.
Diary @ ~~3/06/2008 03:07:00 AM;~~