Rop Ferendez (Humanity)

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Tuesday, September 04, 2007

alright.. guess i'm blogging again!! is it a waste of time? hahas... well...

jared just went back ytd... and i think... this time when he's back... he really enjoyed himself more... me too!! clubbing... shopping.... OMG... materialistic boy? lols sashay.. sashay... ALRIGHT.. back to the point... seriously... this time when he's back... i enjoyed myself a lot...

and also... after cutting my hair bald... seriously... i feel more... more.. outgoing.. happy? and a bit more... special and unique... i feel more.. BIG in that sense.. hahas...

went to zouk on saturday`cum sunday... at first went to the trance area... was freaking boring... i mean... like.. i'm not suitable to be in that place... it's like... i'm having serious bad headache right over there... i just can't take that sorta genre of music... and i was like... dbl 0 is much more better!! hahas.... then oh.. jared found another place!! hip-hop rnb music!! my kinda music and so we head over there and had some serious fun... jared and win tun was like... crazy-ing up and down!! so damn funny can!! hahas... you just see them dance... hahas... well... dance all the way till 4am... and then went to kallang for a munch of cup noodles and wait for first bus to go head... seriously... my best time ever!!

alright... next i'm gonna bring up is that i'm leaving for taiwan soon for RenJianYinYuan... that same old competition... but it's not i compose one... last year i did GYXT... well this time is my dad composed it... some jazzy kinda hip hop feel... to me... not really that hiphop but still.. okay la... serene and i are the main cherographers for this dance... ideas from serene.. me... yeesiang... yinhui.. BOA~ lol... right... got some serious different steps than what we usually do!! to me.. i guess this is one of the best dances we came up with... well.. i'm having some sore throat now.. hope it'll be gone by then... need to sing and dance *sniff~... oh btw... i'm leaving on saturday... 8sep... and will be back by 10sep... hope this trip will be a very safe trip... will you people miss me?? hahas...

well.. okay.. guess i got nothing much left to say...

well maybe... let's get emo a while...

recently... my dad came back from overseas... and okay... like... okay... like.. okay... whatever... so... what i did was... i burned my songs into a CD... recent songs... and pass that CD to him... so he put it one side... he's working in my room... then i went out... well... he said okay... but guess what... when i returned home.... that CD was still there... together with his stuff... well.. i thought that he would listen to it soon... but guess what again?? this time his stuffs are gone... yet my CD is left on the table... he didn't take it... so.. i guess he had already forgotten about it... forgotten cleanly about it... and mention none about my songs... it's very heart-strickening to see my CD is still there... how i wish i could just throw that CD into the dustbin and let him see it.. or rather... break that CD to half.. or... just burn it away.. throw it away blah blah blah... sometimes... others admired my dad a lot for a lot of reasons... i should be proud of him too... but... am i??? sometimes i just wish that if he could just listen to my songs... be it criticisms or what... with a slight encouragement is maybe all i want?? it's just very painful to see myself falling into this same old hole that is not created by me... it's just... just... just... saddening... i dun wan to take that CD and show it to him again... it's like... so what?? so what??? like my song is any good??? it's that kinda idea i will get... though i know he's not gonna say that but... sometimes... it's things like this that makes people keep wondering... daydreaming... how i wish i have a more attentive dad...

yaya... some of you may just come and cheer me up... just let me thank you guys first... seriously... all i want is my dad to appreciate the things that i've done...

and sometimes i think i'm too wearing that "happy-go-lucky" mask... some of you people may think that i'm not that seriously kinda guy.. emo kinda guy.. and that's maybe why some of you are deceived by my non-seriousness... sometimes i mean what i say... so... don't think otherwise okay??

some people says that let the people you loved know about how much you love them... well... sometimes saying that... you just can't retract the things that you said... and then... you may not even end up as friends... so... it drags... and drags.. and drags....

and guess... when it comes to love... it'll just slipped away.........
Diary @ ~~9/04/2007 10:53:00 PM;~~